Friendship forever

Every friend(read:bff) have their own sentimental value.
For example :
A- is my bff for this recent 2 years and we meet everyday, so we talk everything, but know nothing about my past.
B- is my another bff as we meet everyday during lunch and go shopping while boss is out :P- but nothing too personal.
C- is my bff or childhood friend as we were best friend(or belangkas) when we 12 years old.(owh..that is like almost 20 yeas back-gosh, I'm OLD :( )
and the list goes on...

I think it maybe depends on :
1-how long we have been friend
2-how close we are
3-how comfortable we are when we are alone
4-how we met
5-do we know her/his history
6-do we know her/his family
7-how are we connected (collegue@school friend@neighbour etc)

I have a bunch of my b-friends whom I always lunch with, and sometimes go window-lunch-time-shopping. It's more to collegue-connection friend. And the more we talk, I'm more deeply get to know them better everyday, and we are really comfortable talking to each other on anything nowadays.

Meanwhile, I have friends who have been my buddy since I was teenage(read:child :P). We rarely see each other, but we never lost contact since 16 years ago. We knew each other more than our parents know us :P
I mean we do a lot of things together; Europe-travel, Japan-travel, wedding-travel, spa-activity and whole lotz more. From child, till teenage till married woman, till mother of babies and untill we became someone in our career line with our own way of life, but we areee untill now still connected(especially at heart) although we are not so close(location) to each other.

My story is, one of them had just joined my lunch-buddy and we met more frequent. But, I kind-of have mix feeling about this. Of course I am more than happy to see her everyday, but we can't really talk from our heart(like we always do for few hours when we met) like always. Perhaps we are not alone and we can't suddenly stumble to 'did your son still wanted the double decker bed?' while everybody is talking about your ikan is nice..right? So, sometimes I just feel not good about being boring-normal-lunch-buddy to her. Am I that sensitive? I mean, who does really care about what do we talk on our lunch? Do we? Unfortunately I am. Oh gosh, I am stupid :(

So from now, I don't want to think what will I say, or what she will say on our lunch-date, while planning our routine-spa-tea-session again.
I want to keep our precious-most-significance-relation till end of my life and growing the pool bigger. I mean, of course my lunch buddy now is more than that. When I have anything to share, I will get to them. If I need mental and moral support, they are the one who I get to.

Ayat2 masa zaman sekolah : Friendship forever :)